Far away from home! From Palestine! From Occupation! From Israelis
Solders! From Checkpoints! Living Freedom Life! Traveling wherever and
whenever I want! Finding everything I need here! Possibilities in my
whole life! Even it’s Complicated and Simple Life! Maybe critical what
I’m saying but that’s the life here!
My heart is holding mixed feelings of living far away from the
conflict area! It’s not that easy to be far while my whole family and
all the Palestinians living in bad situation and I’m here finding
peaceful, freedom, changing life and becoming better day by day as I
think so the opposite of Palestine, while back home every day many
Palestinians arresting, dying, injuring, fighting, struggling for
finding food, for reaching their school or work with the Biggest
Prisons ever which they are the checkpoints and the Wall, houses
destroyed to leave them homeless, trees uprooted…
Do you think I’m happy? Sad? Actually I have good feeling that I’m
lucky to be here, to live in a period time far away from all the
tragic situation, I think everybody deserve period of safe living,
good life even if the person is good or no! We all are equal and
deserve the best! So to be honest I have a feeling of safety, free and
good feeling toward the Norwegian people that some of them are trying
to involve themselves in our conflict with Israel. But can’t say that
I’m so happy, no I always think about my family, friends and all
Palestinians back home, I’m always afraid for them, worry, confused
from the life here and there! Unfair Life! But why people don’t
appreciate their life?! Ok there are some Norwegian feel that, but
all of them are supposed to know and feel the value of their living in
PEACE!!!!! The simple word with many meanings which most of the world
is dreaming of!
What about the jobs here? Everybody has one..that’s so different for me as well! Many Palestinians asking me to find them job here, do you think its better? Well, for me..it’s better and possible but I’m not advising people to come and be an immigrate! We don’t need that! All the Palestinians have to still in their lands!! So, to be honest, where ever I go,, whatever I do here,, happy either sad! I’m proud to be Palestinian, to carry the GREEN ID, even this is the whole case! And our struggle, but still no place like home! No place like Palestine! Even with all the difficulties life there! The best life in Norway maybe, but no place similar to PALESTINE!!!!!! The best ever, with all my respect to Norway
It’s really easy movement in Norway, when we are going somewhere to
attend festivals or any program; even going home sometimes; I go with
Turid and ask her if she knows the exact time of our arrival! And she
always correct with it! She knows when we will be at our destination, but the problem that we might face it here the weather forecast, nothing else! So this is not a big problem..It’s nothing! Compare with our problems in Palestine, because here no checkpoints, no borders, no soldiers asking us where we are
going and why! What are we carrying in our bags? Bombs? Do we hide
somebody at our car?!! This is the life in Palestine! Do you know what
else, when I went to Tromsø I took with me Palestinians Flag, I
brought it from Y Global! Not from Palestine! I couldn’t carry
anything related to Palestine because the soldiers will stop me and
maybe arrest me because of it! It was really strange feeling for me to
carry Palestinian Flag with me in my bag!!
Do you think it’s easy to live far away from bad situation? No it
still hard know that the violence is still continuing while I’m here,
and all my family and friends are back home!! All the Palestinians!!
Maybe you will laugh at me about what I’m going to say! But actually
it happened to me many times while I’m here and reading, hearing and
watching our news I felt lonely among Norwegians, I belong to the
Palestinians to be like them! To live the tragedy life! And I was
about to cry! I really did! But sure I’m really lucky to be here, but
inside my heart wishing if I’m there, but I know that someday I’m
going back to the bad living! So I think that I have to balance my
life here and back home, keeping on my Palestinians news and be aware
about what’s going on here, to see lose the opportunity to live in
Deluxe life! The Paradox between Palestine and Norway!!
I remember when I was in Tromsø, we were sitting with some friend and
we heard sounds like a bomb! And I was really shocked from this voice
and directly told them:” Oh, please I’m not in Palestine!” Because
here you don’t feel any kind of fear! That’s really strange feeling
for me!
Christmas Time..Family Time..Great Time …People are counting the days
for Christmas…Everywhere in the Global, but not in Palestine!! Why??!!
Not for the Palestinians Children!! Not in The Holy Land!! But we the
Palestinians are waiting for the New Year maybe, because we are
thinking that maybe this year will be a “Peace Year”! Every year the
same!! And still waiting and waiting.. Until when???!!!! ……
Millions and millions of children in the Universe are spending a
pretty and joyful Christmas time…
But the Palestinians do not…
While the children of the World sleep in the hope that the gift of
Santa will be awaiting them the next morning near their beds, our
children sleep with the only hope that the sun of each tomorrow will
rise while they are still alive…
In the time when many children of the world have peaceful dreams of
Santa’s sleigh carrying gifts, sweets and toys, Our children have
nightmares of machine guns that are mounted on the Israeli tanks…
While so many merciful persons remember to send special gifts to many
needy children in this World, our neighbors, the Israelis, did not
forget to send our children a very special and unforgettable gift at
Christmas, a special gift that is consisted of bullets, missiles, and
bombs… a gift to our children whose sense of security has been
unsettled by the night attacks…
Children love Christmas and everything that goes with it …
But here, in our Land, what go with Christmas this year are the
feelings of horror, fear, anxiety, stress, and insecurity…
At this Christmas time, the green Christmas tree hang heavy with
shining lights while people enjoy watching them shining with joy…
As for us, we can only enjoy the glow of tracer bullets in the black
skies as they flew across the valleys…
Children of the world enjoy listening to the sounds of Christmas bells
that are ringing everywhere in the towns…and the children of Palestine
can only listen to the sound of gunshots that echoes overnights…
Children around the World gather together with their families across
the table enjoying a special Christmas meal… But most of our children
still go to sleep hungry…
That’s how we are celebrating Christmas every year…
We’re celebrating it in a completely different manner…
Nevertheless, we are still holding in our hearts a hope…
A real hope that the message of the lord
“Peace on earth & Goodwill towards Humankind …” Christmas is such a
special time of the year…& It merely comes once a year
Will realize in our land & in the whole World…
This holy message of Christmas has become our dream
Which we hope it will, one day, come true…
Our Hope will never disappear!! Never! Never give up! We are always praying..waiting for Peace! And ask all the people to pray for the Palestinians too.. to mention them in their Prayers… to remember that there are many people in all the world still living in miserable life..Special in HOLY LAND!!! In Unfair life!! So please we ask you to be sympathetic with us and special at Christmas Time!! At Jesus Birth Time!!